There's Always a Way to Make Things Work

The view from my balcony

I've been living in Toronto for almost 5 months now...not a very long time. At first, the big city scared me...but now, I think I'm finally beginning to appreciate this place for what it is.

I have had quite the journey these past 5 months. I went from living with my parents in Newfoundland as I attended university and served tables part time, to living on my own in Toronto as I hosted two TV shows, to living with my cousin and her boyfriend as I produce the two TV shows that I once hosted. I have had day long lumps in my throat because I miss home, lonely nights fighting back tears just wishing I had someone really familiar to have a cup of tea with...

But now...I am happy. I live in a beautiful condo with a view of the lake, and I love my job! Yes, of course it would be nice to have all this in Newfoundland. 'Home is where the heart is' after all, and any Newfoundlander can and will fully agree with that statement, but it's kinda cool here in Toronto.

With that being said, I find myself talking about "back home" a lot...and it puts a huge smile on my face and a comforting feeling fills my body. It's beautiful back home. I don't know if I'd call it "homesickness" at this point, it's just that my family and good friends are there, all of my memories are there. It's where I have my inside jokes, and my regular hang out spots. If I want to visit my grandparents, I can.

BUT, ya know...I'm getting to know people here, and make memories (great memories). I have a couple inside jokes with friends, and there are places that I like to hang out. So, I'm making progress, and the majority of my days are happy days...which is more than I can say for myself two months ago.

Anyway, I don't know if there is a real point to this post...but I will end here because I'm gonna have a cup of tea and call my Mom! :) ...There's always a way to make things work!

"Publish Post"

It has become a habit of mine to neglect my blog...so, I think it's time to get back at 'er, and hopefully make this a bit of a hobby. I don't exactly know what I want to do with this whole blogging business...as I look back, it seems like it's a bit of a diary for me; a way of getting things off my chest.

You guys don't know this, but there are about a hundred unpublished posts just sitting in my 'drafts' folder. Posts where I wrote and wrote and wrote, and before pressing the 'Publish Post" button I decided not to publish because of different reasons. For example, sometimes when I have something on my mind, I have trouble delivering it through my words, so I ditch. Or, if I'm feeling low and I write about what's going on, at the end of the post I usually realize that it's not a big deal and I get over it.

I have also realized that I write the most when I am feeling low. That is just when I feel like writing....and if I write about all the good, beautiful bunny rabbits all the time, I could come across as one of those "La la la, My life is perfect...I have no flaws...La la la!" type people. And I hate those people! (Facebook status' and "About Me" sections can be like that. Cynical? Maybe, at times, lol)

So, today I am feeling a tad homesick. Here I am, writing a blog...

I still haven't fully unpacked since my move to Toronto. So this morning I started unpacking the last of my things....and stopped! It's all there sprawled across my bedroom floor, waiting for a place to settle. The only thing is, I am not sure that I want to be settled here. It will feel to official. I still haven't embraced the idea that I am probably not going to be living in Newfoundland again for a very, very long time....if ever.

So, here I am...clicking away on my laptop, taking mini breaks to look at all the crap on my floor...and ya know what? I think I'm just going to return it to the bag it was in, and put it back in my closet.

Cheers! :)

Valentine's Day

Well friends, Valentine's Day is fast approaching once again! I hope you lovebirds are ready with your Hallmark cards and cute little gifts/cute expensive gifts that say "I Love You". Me, on the other hand, won't be celebrating V-Day this year because I am on "Team Single"! However, I do get to help all the other people on "Team In A Relationship" celebrate by serving them food and drinks! Yayyy (with a little hint of sarcasm)!

I honestly don't know how I feel about this Day of Love. I have played for both teams and I find that I don't get as hyped about February 14th as a lot of people do. As nice as it is to get presents and a card saying how special you are to someone (because who doesn't love presents and being told how special they are?), it just seems kind of cliche for my tastes. I would much prefer to have an "out-of-nowhere love celebration". It is more personal, and not forced. For me, when I am in a relationship and Valentine's Day is near, all that goes through my head is, "Shit! I hope I have enough money to buy a gift..." and "I hope I remember to get a nice card before all the good ones are taken..." and "What in the name of god does one buy a GUY on Valentine's Day???" It all seems too forced, too expected...almost a hassle. I am one who enjoys buying stuff for Mr. Right Now when I see something, on any given day, that I think he would enjoy. THAT is how I show my kind feelings in the monetary sense.

With that being said, it kind of got me thinking; If your boyfriend does not get you anything for Valentine's Day, or fails to have something romantic planned for two, does it mean he doesn't love you or appreciate you as much as he should? I know of some gals who have gotten mad because her boyfriend didn't buy her a card that someone else wrote, or never got her a gift that is up to the V-Day standards, or forgot to wish her a Happy Valentine's Day first thing in the morning. What about all the other things he has done for you throughout the relationship? Shouldn't that be taken into account?

In my opinion, the idea of Valentine's Day is beautiful. It is a day set to remind a couple to appreciate and love each other. I like that idea. I just don't understand why things of monetary value have to be thrown in there to prove your level of love. You do understand that the only reason why this particular day seems to be on steroids, is because people in the manufacturing business like to make money...? They blow the day totally out of proportion so they will get rich. Regardless, it works.

I think it would be so nice if couples decided to cut out the presents and cards, and instead decided to give each other a piece of their own heart. Tell your lover how special they are to you and let them know that you appreciate them. Then go ahead and give your bed, kitchen table, counter, floor or...what the heck, even your car exactly what it expects (you know what I'm talkin' about).

So what it boils down to is, the romance on February 14th has been turned into a card-swipin'/money-makin' day. But hey, I'm on "Team Single" and I'm not drunk with love...maybe I'm bitter.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!

Sex Technology

I came across this article tonight, and it kind of excited me!!! Now you guys can throw away the apple pies, blow-up dolls, and whatever else it is that you use to pass time, lol (P.S. Fill me in if it's really creative!!).
Who needs a girlfriend/wife/mistress when this new gadget can "do it" like the pros! Hahaha! Enjoy the article, friends!


LAS VEGAS (AFP) - While nearby porn stars autographed action photos and flashed their assets for camera-clutching fans at the annual Adult Entertainment Expo, Brett Drysdale discretely demonstrated "the newest breakthrough in sex technology."

He slipped two fingers into a rocket-shaped RealTouch device "developed and tested by a former NASA engineer" contains belts, lubrication jets, heating elements and other gadgetry programmed to give men the feeling of sex.

One end of the canister-type devices sized to fit easily in one's lap is made of soft "Haptic" synthetic material akin to that used for nipples of baby bottles.

The faux-flesh wall is slotted to allow the insertion of a body part of a man's choosing.

RealTouch devices connect to computers with USB cables and synchronize with adult movies streamed online so the inner workings replicate what a fellow might be feeling were he to be the man in the film.

"You watch the action on a screen and a signal is sent to the box to simulate what is happening," Drysdale said.

The device works with video from an online RealTouch "theater" at a price of one dollar per minute. RealTouch is priced at 150 dollars and begins selling in the US in February.

RealTouch product manager Drysdale said Sunday that it will be available internationally by mid-year.

http://ca.news.yahoo.com/s/afp/090112/oddities/us_it_internet_sex_realtouch